Tara's World Of Fashion: Advice, Fashion Styling, Discussions, And Trends.
I KNOW FROM DAILY EXPERIENCE, OF KNOWING ME. SOMETIMES I GET CAUGHT UP, WITH HESITATION. WHEN I WANT, TO DO SOMETHING, BECAUSE I WORRY, HOW ITS GOING TO LOOK, AND BE PORTRAYED, TO OTHER PEOPLE. WHEN I SHOULD, JUST SAY, HOW IT SHOULD, BE PORTRAYED, NOT BY THE PRESSURES OF SOCIETY, THE STEREOTYPES. BUT, BECAUSE GOD, BREATHED LIFE, FOR ALL POSSABILITIES, OF CREATIVITY, INNER BEAUTY. ON THE OUTSIDE, WITH LOVE, DEVOTION, AND COMPASSION, OF PHYSICAL APPEARANCE, IN HOW WE TREAT AND MAKE OTHERS FEEL.
I REMEMBER, ALWAYS HEARING THE ANSWER: “NO”, AS A TEENAGER, WHEN I WANTED, TO TRY EITHER TRENDS AT SCHOOL, OR IF I WANTED TO SELF EXPRESS MYSELF. I WAS MADE TO FEEL, I DIDNT KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING, AND WHAT I WANTED, FOR MYSELF, WOULDNT LOOK RIGHT. TRUST ME ON THE RIVER OF TEARS, I’VE CRIED, AUTISTIC MELTDOWNS, OF NOT BEING GIVEN, A CHANCE, ON THE LITTLE THINGS. BUT KNOW I FEEL, LIKE GOD HAS ALLOWED ME, TO DO THE THINGS, I’VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO, LIKE WRITE BOOKS, BLOG FASHION, WEAR MY OWN GLASSES, GO BLONDE, AND GO NATURAL, WITHOUT MY PARENTS, TELLING ME, TWO NEGATIVE PERSPECTIVES, ABOUT MYSELF, THAT JUST EITHER, MADE ME FEEL, LIKE THERE’S THIS LADDER, OF BEAUTY, THAT I WOULD NEVER LOOK, OR AMOUNT TO, OF MY MOTHER, AND OF MY AUNT, AND COUSINS. BUT I WAS A SPITTING IMAGE, OF MY FATHER, AND A REMINDER, TO MY MOTHER, SHE AND I, DID NOT SHARE THE SAME FLAWS, OR BEAUTY, OF HAIR. AND THAT HURT ME, FOR AS LONG, AS I COULD REMEMBER, IT MADE ME FEEL, LIKE EVERY UGLY TERM, COMPARISON, THAT PEOPLE, COMPARED ME TO, MADE ME FIT THE NAME TARA. AND OF THE BLACK COMMUNITIES, DEFINEMENT, OF BEAUTY.
GOD, MY ABBAH, IS THE REASON, FOR ME, TRYING NEW CREATIVE WAYS, TO EXPRESS MY LOVE, FOR FASHION, AND TO CONNECT, WITH OTHER PEOPLE. TO FINALLY FEEL, INCLUDED WITH SOMETHING. AS YOU CAN TELL, I HAD SO MUCH FUN DOING, THE ALL PINK THING. IT’S WHAT, I WANTED TO DO, FOR ALONG TIME. I’VE ALWAYS WANTED, TO HAVE THE RIGHT GRADE, OF HAIR, TO GO NATURAL, TO BE PARDONED FROM NEGATIVE COMMENTS, ON THE ASSOCIATION, OF MY HAIR, AND THE COLOR, OF MY SKIN, FROM SCHOOL, OF PEERS. AND THEN AT HOME, WITH FAMILY. SO THE HAIR, (WIG) REALLY MADE ME SMILE. NEXT THE GLASSES, I’VE BEEN WANTING CATEYE GLASSES, AND TO WEAR PINK GLASSES, INSTEAD OF BLACK FRAMES, DESIGNER FRAMES, THAT WERE HAND ME DOWNS, FROM MY AUNT HARLONDA, THAT REALLY DIDNT REPRESENT MYSELF. AND HOW I WANTED, TO FEEL FASHIONABLY, AND TRENDY, IN WHAT, COULD HAVE BEEN A FASHION STATEMENT, FOR ME TO ESCAPE IN, FROM BAD EXPERIENCES FROM SCHOOL. BUT A REMINDER, THAT I NEEDED, CONTACTS, MAKEUP. AND I JUST, DIDN’T WANT TO WEAR THEM, IN JR. HIGH, AND HIGHSCHOOL, AT ALL.
OKAY NOW WHERE GETTING, TO MY FAVORITE PART, OF THE PICTURE: THE LIPSTICK/LIPGLOSS, AND THE BARBIE PINK NAILS. I’VE ALWAYS WANTED, TO WEAR PINK LIPSTICK, TO MATCH THE TONE, OF MY PINK LIPS, AND TO PLAY, IN MAKEUP, OF DIFFERENT GLOSSES, AND LIPSTICKS. BUT WAS NOT ALLOWED. AND I’VE ALWAYS, WANTED TO WEAR ACRYLIC NAILS, OR MY NATURAL NAILS, REALLY LONG AND PINK. BUT WAS LOOKED UPON, BY MY FATHER AS BEING FAST, UN-LADY LIKE, DISTASTEFUL. WHEN I JUST WANTED TO FEEL, LIKE FOR ONCE, I WAS PRETTY, EVEN IF IT WAS JUST MY NAILS. SO THE LIPSTICK. AND THE NAILS. LOVE ON A HAPPIER NOTE.
THE JEWELRY, I LOVE VINTAGE CHUNKY JEWELRY, LIKE PEARLS, AND NO TO ALL MY COUSINS, AUNTS, AND UNCLES, TO PARENTS, IM NOT TRYING, TO BE LIKE MY MOTHER’S SISTER: HARLONDA BANKS. WHO HAD VERY GOOD, TASTE IN FASHION. WHO AT THE TIME, I THOUGHT, THAT WAS ONE THING, THAT WE AGREED, ON THAT WE BONDED OVER, ON THE PHONE. SO NO, I LIKE PEARLS, BECAUSE I JUST LOOOOOOOOOOVE PEARLS!! AND CHUNKY, VINTAGE JEWELRY.
